Good-Bye Social Media, Hello Me?

For what feels about the 10th time I deactivated Facebook, Instagram and Twitter. I deleted the apps off my phone and have vowed to step away for a bit. Why? I am not sure. At this point in my life I am searching, for what I do not know. I have read the books by influencers. If prompted by the question: If someone came up to you feeling like you do now, what advice would you give them? I would have a response and it would feel unauthentic as I am not taking my own advice at the moment.

Now that they are gone and the "outside world" seems farther away - meaning access to people, their lives and world events are not as easy to see - maybe it will allow me more time to really examine myself. What do I feel is missing? Why am I unsettled? Why do I seem to let the actions of others bother me so much? Do I have unresolved issues/grief from my fathers passing 4 years ago? Am I trying to be something I am not?

Maybe this is the place to explore those questions. Where do I start? Will anyone see this when it is not promoted or shared on social media? Do I care if others see this? 

Why am I writing this and posting? Not sure - don't know - maybe that's the point. Just see where it goes with no expectations. Just an opportunity to explore my own thoughts, feelings and ideas. For me. If it helps others or engages them in a healthy way - that would be fine too.